a letter to him (2nd letter)

you keep your distance with me
and i understand i should stay away from you
but i miss our simple talk
that's why i'm writing this letter to you
eventhough i know that you might not read this
anyway..
how is your day lately?
are you still busy with your band?
did you smile this day or you still have that grumpy face? :p ..
hehe just kidding
by the way..
i found a cake store near sutos
a one bite cake with yummy taste but low price
i want you to try that
i often went there at night
cz the traditional cake have 50% off
so you can get yummy cake with only idr 1.500 ^_^
well, i just want to tell you about that so not important topic
i hope you enjoy your day
smile and happy always

P.S.: i miss u ^_^

a letter to him (1st letter)

honestly...
i'm still searching for your figure in every window of the streets
though i know you can't be in those places
and i'm still looking at my phone
still waiting for your call
though i know u'll never call me
i still miss you even now
but i don't know how to see you
cause you keep your distance
and there's nothing i can do to make you stay
if miracle do happend
and if one of my wish come true
i want to see you
even just a glance

distance

each day i always thinking about calling you
but then i realize
if you realy care about me
you will call me
i realy miss you
i truly am
but i can't stand the fact
that you're not missing me at all

Mengejar Layang-Layang

Aku tidak mengerti, kenapa anak laki-laki suka bermain layang-layang. Terlebih lagi saat layang-layang itu putus, mereka akan semakin giat berlari.. mengejar.. dan berebut.. dan sampai detik ini aku masih tak mengerti. Karena aku hanya anak perempuan yang lebih suka bermain boneka.

Bagiku.. kamu seperti layang-layang, segala sesuatu tentangmu selalu penuh tanda tanya, seperti sebuah puzzle dengan beberapa kepingan yang hilang. Aku tak pernah mengerti kemana arahmu pergi, saat aku menarikmu kuat.. kau tersakiti tapi saat aku mengulurmu terlalu lama.. kau terbang menjauh.. dan aku terlalu lelah untuk mengejarmu.

Saat ini.. aku berdiri di tanah lapang, tersadar bahwa aku takkan pernah bisa bermain bersama layang-layangku ini. Karena itu.. di sini aku akan memutuskan tali layang-layang ini dan membiarkannya pergi.. terbang.. menjauh.. dan menghilang..

Aku melepaskan layang-layangku bukan karena aku membenci layang-layangku, bukan juga karena aku ingin membuang layang-layang kesayanganku ini. Tapi cara terbaik untuk menyayangi layang-layangku adalah dengan membiarkannya pergi bukan diiringi dengan uraian air mataku.. tapi dengan senyuman.

Mungkin senyuman ini bukanlah senyuman yang penuh kebahagiaan yang berbunga-bunga.. tapi aku pastikan.. aku melepasmu pergi dengan senyuman yang tulus. :)




set you free

if loving you is all that means to me
when being happy is all i hope you'd be
then loving you must mean i really have to set you free
letting go is not an easy task
when smiling feels like
i must wear this lonely mask
it hurts deep inside
and i just cannot hide


by mymp